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I am Thankful…

February 15, 2009 at 3:15 pm | In babyme | 3 Comments

…that we get to meet our relatives for 4 consecutive weeks, from 3 different weddings. Some people only see their relatives once or twice a year!

…that we have a roof over our heads, even if we are still staying with our parents. Some people are forced to evacuate their houses due to the recent flood and landslides

…that we have a job, which not only pays for our basic needs but also pay for my crazy obsession with bags, although we have to work in the evening and during the weekends. Some people do not have jobs and can hardly eat 3 meals a day.

…that my bosses think I’m capable and should be given the opportunity, even if it means I have to forego my planned vacation. Some people have never even been on a plane, let alone at the expense of the company.

…that my boss think I can contribute or I can learn something new, even if it means sitting in the same meeting from 9-5. Some people have never even had the opportunity.

…that despite being away from my son, I know I am still feeding him and he is still being well taken care of.

February already?

February 1, 2009 at 8:57 pm | In AH's mummy, breastfeeding | 1 Comment

It is February already!

I haven’t had much time to blog lately and once, I even went through 24 hours without touching my home laptop once! My bosses have decided to bring me into the many projects they are handling on top of what I am already doing. All these with the pressure of trying to lose weight and AH has become more and more attached to me have not been settling well that I once cried in the middle of the night!

All the pressure and somehow, the first thing I thought of tackling was trying to wean AH off completely. I kept on justifying to myself that I have achieved more than I ever thought I would but everytime I thought of it, I felt sad and emotional.

How am I going to handle waking up in the middle of the night to make milk? How am I going to soothe AH whenever he is fussy? How am I going find other ways to bond with him?

I was worried I was going to feel useless because I know that breastfeeding is the only thing that no one can ever take away from both of us. As selfish as it sounds, that is one of the thing that has kept me breastfeeding this long. Whenever I was away, be it at work or overseas, I always made myself felt better by saying that at least AH is feeding my milk. Yes, I am selfish that way. Hee-hee.

Plenty of EBM supply in the freezer (Alhamdullilah!) is not helping as well. When days are long in the office with never ending meetings, I tend to find myself postponing my pumping to much later in the day and I think it was justified as the amount I get at the end of the day from one session is the same as having 2 sessions during the day. I know if this keeps up, my supply will deteriorate.

Yes, I need a kick in the bum. I always find having plenty of EBM makes me a lazy pumper!

So, for February, I am going to make sure I instil more semangat in myself

p.s. there may be less & less entries now. we have plenty of family events going on at the moment. that plus work for february will be a little bit crazy. i am so looking forward to my leave, even it is still months away. har har har.